So, I know that I am normally an upbeat and happy go lucky person. But I had my heart smashed a couple times this week. By people close to me.
First, my mother forgot my birthday. Completely forgot that Monday, July 13, was my 29th birthday.She sprang me from her very loins on that day, 29 years prior. The hottest day of that year, the 13th day of temperatures over a hundred degrees. And she failed to call me and tell me that she was glad that this particular day had come about again and that she and I were still here to marvel in it together. FAIL!
My boyfriend has left me alone all week. Sure, he has been in the house. He has slept the nights with me. He has kissed me goodbye in the morning. But I haven't felt his heart was in it. He has a lot on his mind about the house, the loan, moving, etc. I get this, but it hurts to feel like a roommate. I have felt like a roomate before and it is a horrible feeling.
Thursday, a coworker, a friend, snapped on me when she overreacted to something I said. She sometimes gets sensitive like that. And she sometimes gets into a negative frame of mind. When that happens, I just don't worry about it, I put on my headphones and let her be by herself for the rst of the day. But things were different this time. It didn't blow over this time. I went into work on Friday and as soon as I walked in, she started attacking me (verbally only). She said mean and horrible things to me in the office. Then, she left for the day because she said she wasn't feeling well. And, as childish as it is, it sounds even more when I say it or write it, but she and a friend of hers basically blew up one of my internet pages and said mean and horrible things about me and to me. I just don't understand ppl, sometimes. But, as I have said several times, "its going to take a lot more energy for someone to be ugly to me than it will for me to to go on living my life as normal." I am just truly pained that, after all this, she would tell me that I am a user and I don't take people's feelings under consideration.
And then, on top of everything else, I had asked Rob if I could get some quality time last night? Especially since its been a tough week. But, he did not call, text, or come home till 1:30 this morning. I was so hurt. I could have really used his comforting last night.
Ok. Sorry to bring the mood down. But I had to get that all off of my chest.